These are the days when an emotional eater wants to eat everything.

It's been a rough couple of weeks. On the ... hmmm....I can't remember the date. How weird is that. Anyway, they finally confirmed me as a type 2 diabetic. Turns out everything I thought I knew about diabetes is pretty much a myth or partical truth. I pretty much just thought if your diabetic you need to stay away from sugar. BUZZZ!! wrong answer. It's more carbs and carbs high in sugar content. Joy! Not. Anyway, I'm suppose to try to eat like 6 times a day each time what I eat is suppose to contain as close to 35 grams or carbs as possible. Talk about tough. Oh and to help my meiniers I'm suppose to stay away from salt too. So that leaves me with.....

In other news I find myself in a situation that I'm not sure how to handle. You see when I was in high school we always had the missionaries over to our house. Many of them became good friends and eventually we lost touch. I tried to create a birthday surprize for a lady I know so I tried to hunt down and find all these former missionaries to be a part of my project. So I sent out some letters to various people asking for info or help in contacting these people.

Anyway that was way over 10 years ago. Nov 22 I recieved a responce to one of the letters. that said; - (names and places have been changed)

Hi,
I am a friend of the Brown family in blaablaa state. Recently, Sister Brown showed me a letter you wrote the family in 1998 about Jack O'Niell. Did you ever get in contact with Jack or Samantha?
Do you have any concerns about Jack or a need to get in touch with him? Is there anything I can help you with?
please reply to this email and if there is anything I can do to help you I will. Like I stated earlier I am friends with the Brown family.
Please let me know even if you do not need to contact him any longer.


So naturally I wrote back. -

I was able to get in touch with them again. However I really appreciate you asking, thanks!

The writters reply -

Oh that's great. Do you have current contact with them.?

..... That struck me as odd. I thought about writting Jack and Sam to say hey, someone's asking about you. But since I don't really have much contact other than christmas e-mail and cards, I opted to just ignore the e-mail and play it safe.
Today however, I recieved the following e-mail -

Sister Brown never gave the letter to Jack. He now is a registered sex offender and has a felony for sexual abuse/assult in milkyway county, blaablaa state.

If you are aware of any incident or have any knowledge of this behavior by Jack Q. O'Neill on his mission. Please let me know. If you do not want this information shared . I understand and will keep it confidential.

....What the heck! Is this person for real? No way not Jack. These are the things that ran through my mind. So I did some internet rescearch, took a little while - he wasn't in the sex offenders database anywhere that I could find. However there was an incident that happened that had him suspended for 90 days and on probation for some amount of time. Now considering what his job was/is. It could have been a my word agaisnt your situation. I really don't know. All I know is no jail, and he doesn't have to register with the sex offender data base. Does anyone know what a class c felony is in MIlkyway county, blaablaa state? Didn't think so.

Here's my delima. I'm unsure how to proceed. The person writting the e-mails to me could be some sort of deranged rejected scarlet, or a relative to someone that was wronged or even that person that was wronged and they are seeking revenge or justice. I really don't know. As for Jack, it breaks my heart to even know that he was convicted of such a crime. I really looked up to him. As I did many of the missionaries that visited our home. However as pointed out by my husband it really wouldn't take much to convict someone with his job in his position to be convicted of something.

So now in my head I've got all this stuff bouncing around should I tell Jack, that someone was asking about him? If I do do I tell him what I know and what the e-mail said? What if Jack did something unforgivable (that pains me to even type it)? Is it my place to judge that? What do I tell the e-mailer? He did nothing even.... My gut reaction is to ignore all of it. But there is a this voice in the back of my head saying I have to do something and tell Jack. If I do how do I do that?

GAWWW!! I hate this. I know we all have free agency and we've all made some stupid choices along the way. But, I really hate it when the bad choices being made affect more than the person making the choice. I know can't have good without bad , happiness without sorrow. Anyway.... any ideas on how I should proceed?