Sporadic ramblings of a nutter losing her marbles in print

Well...I am just about ready to give up on the college idea. I filled out the federal add thing And even talked to several colleges. Problem with the online colleges is that those that will except me don't have programs I want to go into. Those that have programs that interest me I can't get funding for until I have 13 credits.

I could go to pikes peak but, I really didn't want to have to drive at night or be away from my family that much. Not to mention my social anxiety issues. Every time I start considering going to pikes peak I start to feel myself freaking out.

Let's however say I get over the anxiety, which program to I follow? One that really excites me. Photography, graphic arts, English/creative writing? Once upon a time someone told me that those degrees are pointless, after all what am I going to do in them? It would be a waste of money to even get them. Especially if it's something that requires me to do a business on my own or charge people for my work.

Blaa!! I hate sounding so negative. I really feel like I'm stuck in this personality that doesn't know how to finish anything. I have several stories I haven't finished writing. Crafts that have yet to be finished, some that I haven't even started. Ideas that I won't even let see the light of day even though they continue to nag at me.

Anyway, that is more than my share of negitive rambling for the day. Time to find some positive.

Yesterday, or maybe it was the day before that. A friend that I thought had written me off, started writing me again. I really missed her. I am so glad to have her back again. I haven't had a friend like her in a very long time. Don't get me wrong. I have had and currently have wonderful friends. Sometimes though you find a friend that somehow feels like they've always been your friend. I wish i were better with words. Oh well. Anyway, Wish we could live by them again.

Another positive thing this week was Jeremy letter home. He was comparing the layout of the area he's in to the super Mario brothers game. Made me laugh. I love reading his letters every week.