Slowly I can feel myself falling. My pills for my social anxiety do a pretty good job of also helping me feel good. My biggest issue is my weight . It makes it hard for me to breathe, which makes it difficult to excersize. I've gained almost 40 lbs in the last three years. It's gotten to where I have a hard time moving comfortably. I hate seeing pictures of myself and none of my clothes fit. And now with my unconfirmed Meineres ( can't spell it.) It's even harder to do stuff. I've also been sleeping A LOT. I think it also has to do with my weight. Yesterday, I woke up at 5:00, got the kids off to school by 6. then I went back to bed and slept till 11ish. Was ready for a nap by 2. Bed time for me is usually 9. I just can't seem to stay awake. I always feel tired.
Apparently I also have no drive or self control. At this point I think it would be easier to gain the 20 lbs so that tri-care will pay for lapband surgery. I really don't want to do that.
I really need some help. I need people to help me follow through and help me make a life style change. I hate feeling like this. It also doesn't help that my husband's back is making it more and more difficult to do things. I love to be outdoors, I love to play sports and be active. I just don't like doing these things by myself. I also need to try to change the way I think about food.
I really don't like the person I see in the mirror. But according to my bone size and the heigth charts, 114 lbs seems impossible, That is almost half of what I weigh now.
I guess the question is do I want to learn to accept me the way I am or do I want to change. With out a doubt I want to change! I want to be able to run a marrathon, climb pikes peak and walk to a different room without getting winded. How do I do this???? I need help. where's my fairy god-mother to help me and join me and guide me?
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The Bits: August
4 years ago
You can do both..accept the way you are and change. Just have joy in both journey's. The best motivator for me to get going is to go to exercise classes. Spinning, aerobics, yoga, whatever. They are so much fun, the time goes by really fast, and everyone is so motivating. If you can't join a gym, try getting online and finding an awesome work out schedule that works for you. Just looking at the schedules is very motivating.
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Hang in there.
I know how you feel-I've worked for 2 months now and have only lost 8 lbs. and am supposed to lose 40 more! At this rate...Do you want to start walking daily again? This time with more purpose? Like Becky said, there are lots of good work outs online and we could push ourselves a lot more! Besides, talking while we walk helps us feel healthier mentally and I for one am less likely to pig out if I'm feeling happy! Let me know what you think! :)
ReplyDeleteI was at the Y for 3 months straight at least 5 times a week at the beginning of this year and lost 3 lbs. I got so discouraged that it went down to 2-3 times a week and now zero. Warm weather is coming (I think) so being outside might help. Let me know if you want to go do something together.
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