Over Emotional

Okay it appears I've been biting everyone's head off.  Or so I was told.  I don't think I am.  All I know is the comment sent me off crying for at least an hour. I think I was crying and upset about everything.  And they were stupid things.

No one likes me.
I'm mean
No one wants to spend time with me.
I'm not allowed to go to young women's for at least 4 weeks.
Oz died
I itch
I don't like the new car
the new car is anti mickey/no one will clean and put my mickey stuff in the car I can't stretch like that.
Oz died, again
I'm stupid for being upset that oz died.  Especially when real people have problems
I'm trapped at home
I'm an evil wife cause my husband thinks I'm having a break down and so now he can't watch his alien movie.
I ruin lives
I'm useless
I'm the worlds meanest mom - I made my daughter do her chores and I told her she is way to old to go trick or treating.
I'm never gonna have my own car for more than a few months (my first car lasted maybe 2months then died and oz is the only other car that was mine.  We got oz in February)
Oz died
No one likes me
I can't lay on my side
All I want is a hug, but no one likes me.

Anyway, the list goes on and doesn't get better.  John seems to think I'm not getting enough of my zoloft.  Which is true.  I have at most been able to take 50mg out of the 150 I normally take to stay sain. and those 50's I got maybe twice since the operation.  The pills upset my stomach so I can't really take them and liquid zoloft.  What a joke. the directions say I have to dilute it with either 1/2 cup lemon lime soda or OJ.  Neither of which I can have.  Not to mention, drinking a whole 1/2 cup of the carbonation or citric juice.

Now that I feel I've had my chance to complain.  Let me also say that I know I have friends and people that love me.  So Holly, I know you love me and I love and miss you too!   You're the one person I think will read this and say HEY, that's not true!    I know.  ((HUGS))