Being Tested

Last year was really tough on us financially. Our only car had to have at least four major repairs. All of which resulted in not paying our tithing, which resulted in more problems. I've always had a testimony of tithing and should have known better. But there was literally no other way to pay for these repairs. Between tithing and maxing out credit cards to pay for the repairs it's been unreal. Anyway, now that you know just what kind of an evil person I am. Let me say that one of my goals for the New year is to make sure the tithing comes out of the paycheck first. Which I did when I made out the bills. Unfortunately the bigger part of my problem is not letting them sit around and pile up before I turn them in. I managed sunday to totally forget to take it. So now it's sitting right beside me. I wish I had a tithing envelope so I could just mail it. Then it would be done.

I however don't have an envelope and I just found out that even though I paid our rent today. I owe an extra 10%, because according to the lease it's due by the end of the 3rd day of the month. Even if they aren't open on the 1st, 2nd or 3rd. The whole thing is really errking me. After all every time we go in they remind us rent is due by the 4th. Which in my head always told me it had to be there by the end of the fourth. This is one of those things that is really making me want to move into base housing on Schiever AFB.

Anyway, The check sits there staring at me. and I keep telling my self it's not really sitting there. To make matters worse we want to drive to see Josie graduate from basic the beginning of Feb. To do that we have to rent a car. (our car has been on it's death bed for a long time now). Fortunately only one of our kids is going with us. Mostly cause we are making him. Hate to say it but I don't trust him alone with the other two. Just hope he can keep up with his school work.

Which means at least being able to rent a smaller car, cheaper, more gas efficient car. I really believe that I am being tested. Cause between the car and the stupid rent and other school expenses, I'm not sure how on earth I'm going to do this. I know that if I pay tithing faithfully things always work out. They just do, I don't always know the hows but I know they do. It's happened repeatedly in my life. I keep reminding myself of that. I must however say, this is really killing me. I really really really wish I had a tithing envelope here. It would make this so much easier. I'm tired of feeling like an ungrateful git.