The last couple days I have had major waterworks going. To be honest, I always tend to get depressed in December. Not real sure why. I love christmas. I love the lights, the music and the reason behind the season. Most of all. I love to to give. I tend to however get a little carried away. so I often try to give the things that I end up making and buying annonomusy. Not because I feel the people need it. I do it because they are the people that are most on my mind and because it's fun. And I love the way my kids like to get involved and be a part of what's going on. The things I give aren't spetaluar or anything. They are mostly homemade.
Anyway, it's been years since I've been able to do this. And it never occured to me that the people who are on the other end might be offended by the gesture. Till I talked to someone else who said they were offend at first by something "similar". Now, all I can think is that I am so sorry if I offended anyone. I just really love the feeling behind doing such things. I'm wondering if I should not do such things anymore. No, in case your curious. I'm not doing the twelve days of christmas.
Anyway, some of my favorite memory's growing up and when our kids were young , are memories of Santa randomly stopping by our house. I always thought that was the coolest. It never even dawned on me that people were doing it because they thought we needed it. Sometimes, I think I am just to niave. For those of you that have people doing things for you this christmas. Please don't think people are doing it because they feel sorry for you. If they are like me, they are doing it, because they like you and they love the feeling of doing something for someone else.
Well I seemed to have gotten off topic. I started this talking about how all I can do is cry. I for some reason am having a really hard time with the fact that Josie has left the nest. Everytime someone brings it up, asks about Josie or I happen to think about her it's all I can do to fight back the tears. Sunday was really rough. I felt like such a baby. I swear I was constantly crying during classes.
It's been forever since I've cried so much. I'm hoping it dies down when my hormones do. Till then "I'm gonna just keep swimming. "
FYI 52 days till I get to spend a couple days with josie as she graduates basic.
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4 years ago
Sorry you're emotional...that's the pits!
ReplyDeleteI think it's sweet that you like to give during the Christmas season. I do, too, and I look forward to that tradition every year! How silly that someone on the receiving end was offended! We are the recipients of some "12 days of Christmas" love, and I think it's the BEST! Usually I'm the one to give in this way, but right now I'm thrilled to receive.
I don't blame you one bit. I am already dreading when mine start leaving home. Although they seem to be in countdown mode. I'm starting to understand my mother a little more. I'm sure Josie is understanding you a lot more now too.
ReplyDeleteI too also love to give, and I am not offended at all by those giving to me and my family.
ReplyDelete52 days will go by so fast. Love ya and if you ever need to chat you can always text me.
I will be a complete basket case when my kids start moving out! Ug! It makes me sad just thinking about it. So you go ahead and let yourself cry. I love "just keep swimming," that's one of my fave movies! And sometimes that's all we can do.
ReplyDeleteAlso, I think if someone gets offended by getting a secret gift, they are WAY too sensitive!
Aw, bless your heart. You have every right to feel the way you are feeling. I love homemade gifts and I love making them. I'm grateful I was on the receiving end this year from Jordon. It ment a ton to me that she took the time to make something for me. I love your family.
ReplyDeleteLet it all out. I don't blame you at all for missing your daughter. That would be so hard. And don't worry about overly sensitive people, you are being kind, and that is what counts.
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